He's always in my heart, but he broke my heart several too many times by refusing my love, with fearful arguments always ending up making him too old for me in his mind. It's so painful to think about him. I started loving him at way too young an age, but I never have stopped feeling the affections that I have felt for him for so many decades.
But I haven't dreamed about him in a long time. In what seemed to be a morgue, he was supposedly in one of the drawers and they wanted me to look at him, but he had been put in the drawer upside down. I didn't want to look because his head was all messed up.
The symbolism in this dream is calling attention to the fact that there is something I have been avoiding to see and I need to pay attention to it. I continue to wonder is it him? Do I need to just accept his head is messed up and that is why we have not been together? Am I supposed to pursue this before it is too late? After all, he is a bit older than I.
Considering calling him, but lost with what to say.
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